No meaning anymore...

I hate my life.
"What's wrong with your life?" you may ask.
I would answer," My life sucks, that's all."
I find that there is not much meaning to live my lonely life these days.
What's wrong?
What's wrong with me?
What's wrong with my life?
I can see that there is no answer to the questions up there.

I can still remember a few months before...I was happy in my primary school CKS.I was.I was enjoying my time chit chating with my friends in class.Life was easier then.I was sharing secrets with my BFFs.They were true friends then.I was sharing my happiness with my friends.They shared their happy moments with me then.I was crying my heart out in front of my friends.I can lean on their shoulders then.I was telling my worries of the exams to my BFF.She told me hers then.I was quarelling with my friends.They were ready to forgive and make friends again then.

So what now?My friends are not like that in secondary now.They are not.I was unhappy.They thought I was sulking about something.I was happy.They thought I was mean.I wanted some silent moments to myself.They thought I didn't want to make friends with them anymore.

The only moment I enjoy in the whole day is night time.I prayed to God.I thought about the things that happened in my life.My dreams changed the worst moments to the best.I change the best moments to the best still.Dreaming was my best enjoyment these days.I wanted to talk to someone like Sherill but I can't see her.I use e-mail then.But my worries are still inside me.What can I do to chase them out?

What can I do?

Father,may you be with me as I go through the saddest moments and may you guide me to the way out of my worries.In the wonderful name of Jesus I pray, Amen.

I miss 6J.
Forever.